Through the depths of hell

I'm as poisoned as honey.
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Breaking a rule doesn’t mean you’re a rebel. Sometimes it’s a way you find to get what you want. You just have no security about it working out, because all the other people are on that other road. And this different path is much more straight, for sure you’ll have much more difficulty. But if you are strong enough to stand all alone and face to face to all the demons on your way, there is a place you’ll find that no other one has ever been before.

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Sentia necessidade de poder tirar das coisas uma espécie de proveito própio, e repelir como inútil tudo que não contribuísse para a alegria imediata do coração, porque tinha um temperamento mais sentimental que artístico, procurando emoções e não paisagens.

Madame Bovary

Sitting here on top of the world
I got everything I need from this world
Oh, tonight I got it right
Just one time

Cruising down the Sunset Strip
And there’s nothing that’s not
That’s not within my grip
Oh, tonight I can fly
I can fly

Look at me for the very last time
I’ve climbed so high
I’ve got no place left to climb
And I know, no tomorrow
Rock star, pop star, everybody dies
All tomorrow’s parties
They have happened tonight
And I know that I won’t see tomorrow

Sitting on the Hollywood sign
Watching the girls get off the bus
Watching the danger in their eyes
When they leave with broken hearts
Their shredded valentines

I came here from a dirty dark street
There was no one there to protect me
To make the nightmares go away
It has to sparkle
It has to shine so hard

Look at me for the very last time
I’ve climbed so high
I’ve got no place left to climb
And I know, no tomorrow
Rock star, pop star, everybody dies
All tomorrow’s parties
They have happened tonight
And I know that I won’t see tomorrow

Turn on all the porno please
Been drowning here for days
Bad food, bad sex, bad TV and internet
Take all these stupid pills away

Climb down the boulevard
I’m coming down so fast
I’m coming down so hard
And I’ve said I can’t stop
All those voices in your head

I don’t sleep, I never dream
I just shut them up
Now I just keep screaming “run away!”
It’s the last time
It’s the last time

Look at me for the very last time
I’ve climbed so high
I’ve got no place left to climb
No, I know, no tomorrow
Before the sparkle in my eyes
Turns to straight night
Oh, this bleeding heart is still a valentine
I’m gonna ride this thing until the wheels fall off
‘Cause girls like me, we always get what we want
Yeah, yeah, yeah

Diamonds and the promises and a million dollar bills
All the lives we’re wasting in the Holloywood Hills
‘Cause we know we’re to good for tomorrow
Yeah, yeah, yeah

Yesterday’s girl or tomorrow’s hot teens?
Were you jerking off to her or were you jerking off to me?
And I know that I won’t know tomorrow
Yeah

Yeah, you want my massive power
You want my porno ways
I’m throwing them out
It’s a wonder that you wait
Lawsuit diamond’s Guns n Rubies
Baby au revoir
You rock’n’roll bitches
You can get what you want

You were made for me and I was made to you
With the keys to the Bel Air and the chateau too

Your little shit coated world
It is rotten to the core
I didn’t know you were born without a soul

I’ve got voices screaming in my head
Are you jerking off in your bed?
It’s not punk, it’s not cool
It’s not even boring
And it’s not Eminem who’s gonna save me

They’re for real life
They tried to steal my soul
I’ve got pills when famous
I got pills when you’re old
I’ve got pills ‘cause I’m bored
I’ve got pills ‘cause you’re dead
I’ve got ‘cause I am the worst and best dressed

I’ve got pills ‘cause I feel more than twenty one
Got pills ‘cause I know, baby, you’re not the one
I’ve got pills for my coochie
‘Cause baby, I’m sore
I’ve got pills ‘cause you’re mad
I’ve got pills ‘cause I’m bored

Cruising down the Sunset Strip
And there is nothing that’s not
That’s not within my grip
Oh, tonight I got it right
Just one time

Sunset Strip - Courtney Love

Às vezes eu sei o que eu quero pra minha vida! Quero que se foda, de uma forma sútil.

O ser humano é tão limitado - no extase de felicidade ou dor tem a mesma reação: impossibilidade de conter as lágrimas.

Desabafo.

Eu nunca pensei que algum momento da vida seria assim - ela me parou, olhou pra mim, e começou a questionar… ‘O que você vai ser “quando crescer”? Qual seu sonho? O que você tá fazendo pra torná-lo realidade?’
E eu respondo: ‘Eu não sei, I don’t know. Gosto de BD, mas não sei se passar o dia num escritório fechado é pra mim. Gosto de história, mas não sei se sou tão simples. Gosto de música, mas não sei se sou tão forte. Queria letras, mas tenho medo de pirar. E gastronomia? Não quero engordar. Pucc? Esamc? Bem, faculdade pública nunca esteve na minha lista. Eu era uma nerd, que tirava nota baixa. Eu tinha preguiça, a não ser que quisesse muito uma coisa. E sabe o que as pessoas me falavam? Que eu podia ser o que eu quiser. Isso só piorava! Porque eu já sabia disso, me lembravam e me deixavam mais ambiciosa ainda. Desde sempre, eu sabia que essa ambição ia explodir. Mas que parte de mim ela vai revelar? eu não sei. E agora essa voz vem me mandar decidir o que que é que eu quero muito…’

I can’t feel safe somewhere else than under your skin.

Foda-se os outros! FODA-SE! Eu não quero que seja melhor que ninguém, eu não amo pra alguém me ver, eu só quero você.